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La ti da ti da [12 Jul 2005|02:19pm]
[ mood | tired ]

So I moved. Lorena and I found a townhome with 4 bedrooms for relatively cheap. We were going to go and pay the same amount for a two bedroom apartment. The house is really too funny. The bathroom downstairs looks like a bathroom straight out of Elton John's house and the kitchen has avocado green counters and a green stove with matching yellow, orange, and green wallpaper that has vegetables on it. It's really too cute. I can't say that i've gotten used to roomate life yet because we've only now been in the house by ourselves for like a day. My family was here visiting and then hers was here visiting, now the house seems too empty.

Speaking of family, my folks met brian's folks last weekend. Eeeek! Everything actually went well. For some reason I kept dreading the day they'd meet because hollywood always does such a good job of ruining that kind of thing for you.

In other news, if everything goes as planned, I should be finishing up school in a year and a half instead of 2, this of course allows me to get a raise and be paid what I deserve to be paid. Yay!! More money is always good. Plus i'll get to put all of my "psychobabble" to use. Yay!!

Since this is a complete update, I can't go without writing something in here about the love of my life...Brian. There's not much to say other than he's great.

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Gahhhhhhhhh [05 Apr 2005|10:46am]
Wake up, shower, eat breakfast if I have time, go to work, go to class, come home, eat dinner, watch TV, go to bed.

From the moment I was able to breath, I had a conviction that I would be what I wanted.
Thinking that I didn't know what I wanted to be was not an issue.

Back then I knew what I didn't want to be, and what I didn't want to be was everyone else.
I wanted to be different, I wanted to be unique, I wanted to be...

Wake up, shower, go to work, go to class, come home, eat dinner, watch TV, go to bed.

The slightest hint of a breeze changes my dreams,
whether it's a book or a passing comment, in one hour I see myself as a doctor, a shrink, a photographer an artist, or a beggar ont he side of the street.

I see a hundred ways outside of this cave but I don't see where I'm supposed to take the first step in any direction except forwards or backwards.
There is no circle of decisions, so all I can do is put my head down and go.

Wake up, shower, go to work, go to class, come home, eat dinner, watch TV, have sex, go to bed.

I'm 23 going on 50 and the confidence I had when I was young is has almost completely faded. I'm still walking in that same tunnel and I can start to see where it ends, but it has nothing to do with where I thought it would end when I started.

I've had my head down for too long and now it's almost too late to change my mind and go back.

What do I do - risk going back and waste all this time to find out I'm not better off than before, or just put my head back down and keep walking?

Wake up, shower, eat breakfast, go to work, come home, eat dinner, watch TV, go to bed.

Every morning as I look at those riding with in the elevator, with their tired faces, bags under their eyes, and grumpy demeanor, I realize....i've become "everyone else"

It now seems like there is just time to wake up, shower, go to work, go to class, come home, eat dinner, watch TV, go to bed, and sleep.
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[10 Mar 2005|09:10am]
Stole this from Kidradical

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What Political Party Do Your Beliefs Put You In?
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[03 Jan 2005|09:14am]
I know it's a little late, but Happy New Year to everyone!
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[31 Dec 2004|10:10am]
[ mood | blah ]

Taken from Kidradical's journal =)

Best of the Year
1. Party: Pat O'Brien's on my B-day
2. LocalShow: I don't think I went to any this year...havne't check out the scene her here in san antonio in a while...
3. CD: Damien Rice "O"
4. Movie: Closer, and...well...that's the last one i've seen so i'm not real sure i can't think of others i've seen but this one was GREAT
5. Song: Anything by Damien Rice
6. Experience: Meeting Brian, and believe it or not becoming an adult (getting a "real" full-time job, getting an apartment, starting graduate school, paying bills, etc.)
7. Concert: Austin City Limits
8. Book: The Mummy at the dining room table
9. Month: January
10.Day: 1 (beginning of a new year)

Worst of the Year:
1. Party: Uhm...I really can't say
2. LocalShow: .....
3. CD: APC's newest...was dissapointing
4. Movie: can't think of one...
5. Song: anything sung by rap/r&b "divas"
6. Experience: Working at SAEP (my first job out of college) my boss was just...inconcevably horrible, I love my new job eventhough it pays me way less.
7. Concert: dave matthews because it rained and it was cold then it got hot and sticky and muggy
8. Book: Inside the Criminal mind...too baised
9. Month: June
10. Day: ....

Hopes for 2004:

1. Predict something that you think will happen in 2005? Spontaneous combustion of my car
2. What do you hope changes about your country? that somehow our president grows a functioning brain and starts fixing all of the things he's done wrong for our country
3. What do you hope for yourself? To be healthier
4. What do you hope for your family? For them to get along better
5. What do you hope for your best friends? For them to continue doing well and being happy
6. What do you hope for the rest of your friends? the same

During 2004:

Where were you when it began: Grandma's House
Did you stay up: Till 2 or so
What was your new year wish? Can't remember
How many boyfriends/girlfriends: The only one that matters is Brian
Have any crushes?: of course
Care to mention names? Jude Law and Brad Pitt (w/out a shirt on)
New friends:J.Glowacki, Bert, Tish, Martha
Had to say goodbye: To college life
Missed anyone: Selynda (my college roomate)
Win anything? a christmas centerpiece at the building's luncheon thingy
Best place you went to: hmm...the beach?
Worst place you went to: Reynosa
Happiest moment: Too many to count
How was your birthday: Wonderful, it was spent at home with my family and Brian and then celebrated with dinner on the riverwalk
Best present: my family and brian's time with me

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Live by myself, pay all of my own bills, bought my own dog, became self-sufficient.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I never make them, I can't keep them

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, Patrick and Magda had a gorgeous baby girl

4. Did anyone close to you die?

5. What countries did you visit?

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
better health

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 17th, when I met Brian

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Graduating college, job, apt., etc....

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not preparing better

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Panick attacks, colds, and anxiety/stress

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Hannabelle my doggy

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
13. Whose behavior made you appalled?
Ehh...don't think i'm qualified to say...i don't know...

14. Where did most of your money go?
I'm still asking myself the same question...

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
too many things

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Toughy but i'm with "kidradical" on this one..."Hey Ya"

17. Compared to this time last year, are you

i. happier or sader? happier
ii. thinner or fatter? fatter
iii. richer or poorer? probably poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

20. How will you be spending New Years?
not really sure

21. Did you fall in love in 2004
Yes =)
21. How many one-night stands?

23. What was your favorite TV program?
Felicity Re-runs, sex and the city, six feet under (when i had HBO)

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Shins, Postal Service, Iron and Wine, Fruit Bats...but over all of them...Damien Rice!

26. What did you want and get?
To stay in San Antonio and not have to move back home

27. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
turned 23 and went to Pat O'Brien's with classmates/friends and Brian, drove home to celebrate with family,mom cooked, and got taken out to a fancy shmancy dinner on the river walk by Brian who did the whole nine yards with flowers and everything...it was cute

28. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Preparation, in every aspect of the word. Mental, physical, emotional, etc...but its really hard to do that and really hard to get rid of yoru sheaths of discarded armour in most circumstances

29. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
comfortable, and at work "business/businness-casual" Believe you me...I laughed when I saw myself in the mirror wearing a black suit and black heels with hose...it was weird...i looked like a grown-up but didn't feel like one...and still don't

30. What kept you sane?
Brian, Mom, music, and school (on some level)

31. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Ehh...can't really think of one worth mentioning

32. What political issue stirred you the most?
America being stupid and re-electing Bush

33. Who did you miss?
Sel after graduation, my parents on a daily basis, my brothers

34. Who was the best new person you met?
I know it sounds redundant but...of course...Brian

35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
Even the people you think you know best will screw you over if given the chance

36. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
And so it is...just like you said it would be...life goes easy on me...most-of-the-time...

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[28 Dec 2004|03:55pm]
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[03 Nov 2004|11:43am]
Does anybody want a puppy? She's 5 months old, a terrier mix (mostly jack russell) she's very sweet, incredibly sweet actually. But I just don't have the time between working an 8 hr. + job and doing graduate school. I have pictures too if anyone wants to see her.
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[10 Aug 2004|12:34pm]
Your band by jesus_spiced
Pick an obscenity
You will be theLead Guitarist
Your groupie will bepetpeevevoid
Your cover band will be started bymagicwaffles
Debut CD nameRobotussin Shots
Your next tour isMay 28, 2006
Opening bandSoundgarden (reunited)
You sound like a mix betweenLed Zeppelin
Band quirkYou make yodelling a trend
Typical band clicheDave Grohl joins
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That's funny considering that I slightly overdosed on "tussin" and wrote about it in a previous entry. I have to say that i'm glad that Dal is going to be my groupie (where have you been ho? I call your skank ass and you don't answer...what up wit dat?)
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[05 Aug 2004|08:17am]
It's funny how even at 22, you can still whine and say "mom! can you bring me my blanket" and she'll do just that and fix your pillow and throw the blanket over you.

I love my mom. She's in town right now and i've left her at my apt. with my sister to fend for herself and she will have dinner waiting for me when I get home from work.

She should totally come live with me. Home cooking and spoiling galore.

Totally dragged ass at work yesterday. Had to give an impromptu speech at a parent/student orientation...in Spanish! It was fun, got to talk to a lot of parents and explain the importance of school and how there are ways to pay for it. I also stressed the importance of instilling the value of education in their children now because it's never to early. Heck even a 2 year degree is better than nothing! Did you know that an X-Ray tech (w/ a 2 yr degree) makes $40/hr here in San Antonio?? That's more than i'll probably ever make w/ my freaking master's! But anyhow...academia and knowledge make me happy, and doing something that I like doing as oppossed to working for just $ are infinately better in my eyes...so yeah.

Anyway, I have to fix a publication now that i've finished my morning coffee and take it over to the printer's.
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[03 Aug 2004|12:00pm]
Some days it's really hard to comprehend that everything really is ok.

For the first time in....forever?? everything is turning up roses. I have a job, I got accepted to graduate school and i'll be starting in about 2 weeks, and i've moved out on my own and have my own apartment...oh yeah nad things with the bf are still beyond wonderful...wtf??

I guess this really is the calm after the storm...it's just never been this calm before in my life...I guess it's been pretty stormy for the last few years, but looking back in retrospect it's part of the learning process and I really do think i've done a lot of growing up. But anyway...

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[03 Aug 2004|11:58am]
[ mood | awake ]

I would like to think that divergence after some time inevitably leads to convergence on some living topography.

Maybe it’s symbiosis

When things fall apart they are actually coming together.

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[28 Jul 2004|03:55pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

So I am at work right now. I actually have some downtime and don't quite know what to do with it. I came back from lunch and the afternoon has pretty much been really calm and laid back.

I went and dropped off my deposit and my employment offer letter at the leasing office today. I should be set and ready to move in friday afternoon....thank goodness.

Can't help but look at things in retrospect and just feel really grown up. And I think... "so THIS is the 'real world'". It's not so bad...I kind of enjoy it really...I think i'm gonna get dropped on my ass with reality when I move in and i'm sitting there all alone. It's funny too because I keep thinking my friends have dwindled by the numbers...and its' true that you lose touch with people and people change. I hardly recognize myself anymore.

I look at other people, things they say, how they act, etc..etc...and in some cases think...i've grown up more than they have...my conversations no longer revolve around college life, toilet humor, and people of the past. They're very real and it's a little scary. I must say however that I'm enjoying every minute of my "being out in the real world" i'm sure i'm gonna be sad when I have to actually start paying my rent, light, water, groceries, phone, cable, internet, gas, credit cards, etc..etc...AHHHHHHHHHHH

But in any case....life is good...life is good...I think... =)

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Whoah....... [27 Jul 2004|12:43pm]
So I guess there's a lot to update on in the last week or so. As you all know I've started my job and I love it.

I get to dress up like a grown-up which I don't completely hate like I thought I would, I get to go to meetings and events and meet different kinds of people and that's fun. I'm having trouble grasping the idea of being a "professional" cause it's unreal to me. I haven't even brought anything into "my" office...which is completely ridiculous that I get one to my own...but anyway.

Next news is that i'm moving into my apartment on Saturday!!!! I am crazy beyond crazy excited about it. I don't have a table and stuff so if anyone knows of anyone getting rid of one let me know, I bought a sofa sleeper for 40 dollars at the thrift store yesterday so that was kinda cool...now I need like...a chair or something, but anyway. I also won't have a bed until next week which kinda sucks cause i can't put my bedroom together until then. So yeah...anyway...

Brian and I are still great and well...that's really cool. It's kind of crazy to me how i've just about become a permanent fixture in his family. I'm there all the time, and his entire family seems to really like me and well...I really like them...but anyway...

So yeah...that's the latest in my life...
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[13 Jul 2004|11:09am]
Been a while since i've updated, but things in my life have been really up in the air as always, only moreso now than ever before.

However....things are really starting to look up for me. I FINALLY got a job and this I guess is what I was most concerned about. I guess I kind of already knew I had the job but I wasn't official until yesterday. That meant that I sat around waiting to be told YES (officially) for 3 weeks which were complete anguish and torture. But anyway, went down to the place yesterday talked to my new boss for a while and I'm set to start on Friday...wheeeeeeeeeeee. In case you're wondering I am going to be a project coordinator for the San Antonio Education Partnership. I'm actually really excited because I think this is something I can really do well. I'm going to be in charge of working with at-risk youth and teaching them the importance of an education so I will be giving talks and presentations, coordinating and going on college visits with them and writing newsletters and such that will be mailed to the students and their parents. SO yeah....

In other news things are still going along marvelously with Brian. Kind of inexplicable really. I spend entire weekends with him and we don't get tired of each other and we just have such a great time together it's insane. We laugh about everything and are one of those stupid mushy couples that I used to hate and used to say I'd never become...I guess its funny how the right person will change things like that. Last weekend I was at his house and got food poisoning from this pizza we'd eaten, I was hunched over the toilet purging my insides out and running a fever and just being completely run down. His mom told me to put my pajamas on and go upstairs and she's fix me soup. Then Brian went and stayed with me to make sure I was ok. He was suppossed to go back to his room to sleep after I fell asleep and instead he stayed with me the entire night in case that I needed something...how cute is that? But anyway, enough gloating over my bf.

Next thing is...the search for an apt. If anybody knows of somewhere rather central that is moderately priced as well as moderately nice let me know! I'm looking to get an apt in a month or so because while I'm completely grateful to Julie for letting me crash here, I really just want to be out on my own. Also, if anyone knows of someone who's trying to get rid of furniture for cheap...let me know...I need that too and well... yeah. I will definately have to have an apartment warming party that you will all be invited to of course. But anyway, I guess that is all for now.

Oh also I think I want a kitten when I move into an apt. so if anyone knows of any kittens that someone wants to get rid of in about a month or so when they are weened from the mommy, let me know as well =)
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[16 Jun 2004|07:18pm]
FUcking crazy....

I have two interviews tommorow....all of a sudden i'm out of a job and i get all these phone calls. WTF? It's awesome.

Also yesterday, this place i interviewed at last week called and told me to please forward them 3 references... good sign???

Anyway, i'm excited I hope to get my own place at the beginning of august or so...

If any of you guys know someone who wants to get rid of furniture and stuff...let me know

I have a bed, but i kinda need a kitchen table and shelves and stuff...so yeah....
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[16 Jun 2004|08:32am]
So the other day Brian and I were at the pet store because i've decided I want a pet when i get my own place and because he loves pet stores too. I of course wanted everything in site instantaneously except for maybe the reptiles. Although I think a Chameleon would be kinda fun...but not fun in that cuddle and play with kinda way...more like the stare at and admire kinda way....ya know??

Now i'm torn between A.) having a cat because they are nice if you get the right kind, and are pretty self-sufficient, you dont' have to take them out for walks and stuff and they can eat on their own. B.) a chinchilla cause they're fucking awesome except their kinda messy and they can stink if you don't clean our their area often. C.) a handfed cockatiel- these animals are extremely loveable and if you train them correctly they'll follow you around the house like a puppy! or D.) a plain ole' dog....except...i'd hate to have to wake up to take it out to do its things etc...etc..

So...what do you all think???
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[16 Jun 2004|02:55am]
[ mood | awake ]

Updates in the last few days....

Today was my last day at the office, it was relatively short and i left pretty unnoticed. Got told "you did a good job, were a great help, were really impressed, thanks so much", then i got a gift set with a st.mu clock and matching pen (woo) and a swift kick in the ass and that was all. Alright for me.

Things are starting to look up. Have a few job prospects...and something that I think is really going to come through (so i'm crossing my fingers).

Nothing tremendously new has occurred other than earlier today I was thoroughly convinced it was July 15, and that June 15 had already passed so I didn't call Dalyla to wish her a happy birthday until around 9 o'clock this evening after liz and I had seen sex and the city and were watching the pistons totally massacre the lakers!!! So anyway, apparently my brain is malfunctioning in some manner.

Was gonna go home this week and weekend but looks like i may stay in town until early next week and then head home. I'm waiting on a few things from these job things so I figure i should stick around some. I will probably spend a day or two w/ the bf anyhow since his brother is coming to visit and he's the only member of the O'Grady clan that I've yet to meet so it should be fun.

Other than that...nothing else is too compellingly interesting to share...everyone cross your fingers for me on the job thing!!!

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[16 Jun 2004|02:43am]
No joke did I just get this IM'd to me:

i don't like to waste peoples time. So please forgive my forwardness I'm a 27/m very unhappily married, looking for a discreet affair. Willing to pay, wierd IM I know.



I can't even say anything about it....
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[13 Jun 2004|01:05am]
[ mood | sad ]

Been a while since I've written...a lot going on in my life as of now...or should I say....not a lot but definately a lot of psychological jargon.

It's been a month since graduation and still no job. Being out and about and in the real world is wonderful and frightening all at once. My job at the univ. ends tuesday and I have an interview on monday. Had one thursday that went well so ::crosses fingers:: i hope something pulls through soon.

On a side note....i've been somewhat melancholy lately. I've called my mom crying at least 3 times in the last week and I can't quite pinpoint what the problem is. It's as if my brain conjures up all of these little thoughts and they play over and over again in my brain like a broken record. This marauding juggernaut is starting to inbed itself in my thoughts so much that i'm starting to get that old feeling again. I've been off of meds for like 5 months...I hate the idea of going back to pills...but i think i just might have to.

Anyway, sorry this update was so gloomy.

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[22 Apr 2004|08:48am]
[ mood | anxious ]

Things in my life right now are so up in the air it's not even funny. Next week are my finals and the following week....i've basically nothing to do except pack away all of the memories from the last four years.

Looking at things in perspective, I realize i've done a complete 180 from the time I got here, in some ways good, in others bad. One thing is for sure and that is that I really regret nothing.

Memories and such will always be there, a lot of these people that have in some way left their print on me won't but life is random like that and so I'm left with no choice but to be ok with it, and I am.

I have about 5 essays to write, 3 finals, and 2 movies to watch for school all by next wednesday or so....somebody should shoot me. But anyway....i guess that's all that's really happening in my life right now...thought i'd update you guys....school and graduation in about 2 weeks....still no job =( ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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